{source: erin jane}

Disclaimer: this is probably one of the more passive aggressive posts I've written, but I'm just going to go with it.

I've noticed a few changes in myself in the few weeks that I've been employed again. The number one change I've noticed is that I'm a more positive person. I know, who knew? It's weird. The funny thing about going back to a job you've had for years is that there's no honeymoon period. Co-workers who used to come into your office & vent, still come into your office & vent. Now, I'm not begrudging them this. I remember how they feel, but at the same time, I just want to say to them, "You have no idea how good you have it." I'm not saying this, of course, I'm just staying positive & thankful for having a job again & hoping it rubs off on them.

It goes without saying that there are far worse things a person can go through than being unemployed for 7 months, but what I went through was pretty rough & I've clearly come out a different person. For one thing, I now know what it feels like when the other shoe drops. I've lost the security of thinking that people like me don't lose their jobs, or that people my age don't face things like worrying about losing your house or getting into an accident when you don't have health insurance. I've also learned that you really don't get dealt more than you can handle, & that you do come out stronger in the end. Cliche, but true.

I feel like going through this has given me an advantage that will hopefully shine through as I continue to look for a permanent job. I've noticed a lot of my friends with jobs, but looking for other jobs, have this bravado about them, like they deserve the job. There's a fine line between confidence & entitlement & I hope it's apparent to potential employers which side of the line I'm on now. Also, having a job, interviewing for another job & not getting it does not put us in the same boat. A little sensitivity goes a long way. I've been turned down for every job I've applied to for the past 7+ months. When you've been turned down for that many jobs, come talk to me, but until then, put on your big girl panties & be thankful that you have a job.

Whew, I feel better. Okay, moving on.

I'd also like to think I'm attractive to potential employers because there's no way I'm losing another job anytime soon. I'll be the best employee a company could ask for. Plus, I'm fresh. I'm starving to be challenged & to put my brain to use again.

I'm kind of all over the place here. Congrats if you're still with me on this blog post/cover letter. I guess I just want to say that I feel different. I feel very glass-half-full. I've made a concerted effort this past year to surround myself with positive, supportive people & I think it's made all the difference. My hope is that others will start to see me in this same light & that instead of using me as a sounding board, will instead look to me as someone they'd like to be more like. God, is that as arrogant as it sounds? Whatever.

Thanks for listening!

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